history of my music
Some of you may know that I’m a singer. I started my career when The Chicks released their album “Home”. I had a CD player in my room and I would listen to it on REPEAT- while singing in the mirror and fake playing violin. Sitting on the bathroom counter with my feet in the sink, I’d pretend I was Shania Twain getting interviewed. I was 8.
I started taking singing and violin lessons at the ripe age of 10. This is pretty late to start playing violin (so weird hey???) so I kind of sucked. I switched to viola and got a bit better, but I developed tendonitis in my left hand (my hands are actually the size of a 3 month olds), so I stopped being so serious about it.
BUT the good news is, I was pretty good at singing. I participated in the Medicine Hat musical festival evvvvvvvery year - musical theatre and CLASSICAL. I had a lot of success in Medicine Hat and Alberta. My true passion remained in country music though- I taught myself how to play guitar when I was about 15 and started writing songs and I wanted to be JUST LIKE Taylor Swift, and I was secretly in love with about 5 guys who didn’t like me back (they are stupid hey?)
When I turned 19, after I decided very last minute I didn’t want to attend opera school, I took a year off. I had big big plans to take my music super seriously and try to get famous. I started taking lessons with an amazing coach and mentor in Calgary and all was like SEWWWW splendid. BUT THEN
BUT THEN
Aw I went through the worst breakup ever. I have a history putting 1398% of myself into relationships with men, and I just seemed to mold myself to fit his life. When we broke up I was TRULY A CRUMPLED UP PIECE OF PAPER. I lost myself.
Throughout the years I’ve gone back and forth with being into music and putting it on the back burner. I was previously in a 5 year relationship- and SAME THING. I molded myself into his lifestyle and forgot about MY dreams. Sad. Tragic. Wah.
My inner saboteur is always telling me “It’s too late, you would’ve done it by now, you suck, faaaaahhhhgettaaabouuutttittt”. But my dream is still VERY much alive. I have been nurturing my inner artist, and taking steps towards my dreams and my passions. I’ve literally always wanted this- and my biggest fear is living a life unfinished where I didn’t reach my full potential. Lately, I’ve been working through “The Artists Way” by Julia Cameron (highly recommend). I’ve also been taking lessons with a few mentors from Calgary (Tabitha Fair, Renee Grant Williams), and my mentor in Calgary (Brian Farrell) again, HIGHLY recommend. This year, I’ve invested in my art and set up a little studio in my home and have been writing like crazy!
Do you guys have any dreams that haven’t yet come to fruition? It was really hard for me to admit that YES I want to be a famous person and make a living off being on stage. I try my very best to surround myself with people who believe in me and can see my sparkle. I hope it’s going to make you notice.